Happy 4th Re-Birthday!

Today is Jorjia’s 4th anniversary for her sobriety. It’s kind of like it is her re-birthday. Her new life of sobriety started 4 years ago today.  I remember celebrating the daily, weekly and monthly victories; as she began this walk. 100 days which then led into 6 months, and finally that 1st year clean…

Worthless

Tears burning behind my eyes,  Satan whispering constant lies.  I never can do anything right,  Just quit, stop, give up the fight.  The pain it presses deep within,  Screaming in the depths of me, I will not overcome this sin,  I am a failure – I can not win, I am a loser and will…

Just One More Drink

Getting that unexpected call during the night made my heart pound. I instantly began to wonder what was wrong. The voice on the other end of the line was sobbing uncontrollably. My chest tightened. “I’m so sorry mommy. I am so sorry. I can’t stop mom. I can’t.” My heart sank. Terror filled me. My…

Color Me Happy

Recently I have been dealing with major mood swings. I have been battling a lot of depression and feeling overwhelmed. This being the case I have been exploring ways to cope with these feelings. One of the things that I have found helpful is coloring. I have always enjoyed being artistic, but when I am…

Humor Me

Its funny how you can feel Two such different emotions at once. Pleasure and Guilt. Funny how one moment Can change your life or that of others. Funny how you can see the iceberg coming And not even move. Funny how you can put on a show A mask to fool the world around you…

A Walk To Remember

The weather down here was quite delightful, Compared to back home which was frightful. We’d left ice, snow and freezing temperatures behind, Came to the sunshine state to see what we’d find. As young parents our private moments were precious and few, So a night time stroll helped our relationship renew. I remember like yesterday,…

Stop. Look. Listen.

Stop. Look. Listen. I believe all of us recall hearing this as a small child. As well as certainly telling our own children to stop, look, and listen. Most likely when you read the title and even began reading this blog you thought of crossing the road. I do not blame you at all. Because…

Delegation vs. Bossiness

Delegation vs. Bossiness I was a very choleric child. (If you haven’t read Florence Littauer’s Personality Plus – it’s a must read!) I can remember playing dolls with my friends and telling them what their dolls needed to say to mine. We would play house and I would explain to them what they needed to…

Deeply Distracted

Have you ever been talking with someone, sharing something with them, and when you asked them a question, their answer seemed way off? Or maybe they were quick to say, could you repeat the question? I am not sure that I heard that right. Or perhaps they were honest and said, I’m sorry, I wasn’t…