Choose Love

As part of my 12-step program I have learned that most of my bad decisions have been the result of fear. I feel fear – so I react, fight or flight. I lash out or I shrink away. Even if the surface emotion is different when I look closely the core belief or emotion is … More Choose Love

Almost Scammed

It blew my mind that I almost got scammed. Not that I believe that I am better than others that have gotten scammed, actually it is more so that I doubt the ‘to good to be true’ so much that sometimes I know I miss opportunities. This time though, I did the research and while … More Almost Scammed

5 Years of Changes

This morning I was thinking about the fact that in January, our daughter Jorjia achieved 4 years clean and sober. So, about 5 years ago, she was in active addiction and homeless. I was in awe thinking of the changes that have happened in those 5 years. Honestly, 5 years ago I couldn’t hand her … More 5 Years of Changes

Worthless

Tears burning behind my eyes,  Satan whispering constant lies.  I never can do anything right,  Just quit, stop, give up the fight.  The pain it presses deep within,  Screaming in the depths of me, I will not overcome this sin,  I am a failure – I can not win, I am a loser and will … More Worthless

Color Me Happy

Recently I have been dealing with major mood swings. I have been battling a lot of depression and feeling overwhelmed. This being the case I have been exploring ways to cope with these feelings. One of the things that I have found helpful is coloring. I have always enjoyed being artistic, but when I am … More Color Me Happy

Hey Sugar!

So, Mom introduced me to the Whole30; a diet that focuses more on changing your thinking rather than losing weight. Part of the Whole30 rules are no sugar allowed. That means no sugar, no glucose, no honey and no sugar substitutes.   Let me tell you – I had no idea how addicted to sugar … More Hey Sugar!

Humor Me

Its funny how you can feel Two such different emotions at once. Pleasure and Guilt. Funny how one moment Can change your life or that of others. Funny how you can see the iceberg coming And not even move. Funny how you can put on a show A mask to fool the world around you … More Humor Me