Imagine looking through the window and seeing me sitting, surrounded by papers, and computers (yup, more than 1), tea cups, water bottles, pens, headphones and crumpled tissues….. staring into space. Can you see it? Now, see me slowly get up, and leave the mess, walk to my bedroom, and lay down on the bed with … More Performance Paralysis…. (or why can’t I do this?!)
As I begin to jot this down, I am practically in tears. Today has been one of those days. Perhaps you can relate. I had grand plans. I had my alarm set to have plenty of time to accomplish all that I needed and not be rushed or stressed. And yet…. here I am running … More Pull Over!!!
Today is Jorjia’s 4th anniversary for her sobriety. It’s kind of like it is her re-birthday. Her new life of sobriety started 4 years ago today. ￼ I remember celebrating the daily, weekly and monthly victories; as she began this walk. 100 days which then led into 6 months, and finally that 1st year clean … More Happy 4th Re-Birthday!
Tears burning behind my eyes, Satan whispering constant lies. I never can do anything right, Just quit, stop, give up the fight. The pain it presses deep within, Screaming in the depths of me, I will not overcome this sin, I am a failure – I can not win, I am a loser and will … More Worthless
Well here it is, here I am. I have been struggling with a dark cloud. A very deep, very dark depression – not to the point of suicidal thoughts (well nothing I felt I was going to act on). I’ve been mostly honest with people close to me about where I am and how I’m … More What Came First, the Chicken or the Egg?
It’s a funny thing, happiness. Sometimes seeming so elusive to me, yet occasionally I see other people who seem to have happiness as almost a constant companion. Then I wonder, what is their secret? Often, I don’t even realize that I am not happy until I recognize that I feel unhappy and am suffocating in … More If You’re Happy and You Know It…