Worthless

Tears burning behind my eyes,  Satan whispering constant lies.  I never can do anything right,  Just quit, stop, give up the fight.  The pain it presses deep within,  Screaming in the depths of me, I will not overcome this sin,  I am a failure – I can not win, I am a loser and will…

Just One More Drink

Getting that unexpected call during the night made my heart pound. I instantly began to wonder what was wrong. The voice on the other end of the line was sobbing uncontrollably. My chest tightened. “I’m so sorry mommy. I am so sorry. I can’t stop mom. I can’t.” My heart sank. Terror filled me. My…

Authentically You

“Life isn’t about finding yourself, its about creating yourself.” George Bernard Shaw My whole life I was always trying to ‘find myself’ to figure out who I was. I would stress myself out endlessly over not knowing. How does one find themselves? How do we know who we are? One day someone told me that…

Checking In

Social media has made ‘checking in’ so easy. It’s just something that we do now. It is the social norm. We check in when we go out to eat, or to the salon or just about anywhere. But how often do we take the time to check in with ourselves? How often do we go…

Dear Diary

I used to think that little kids were the only people that had diaries. Diaries were just for little girls to write about their secret crush, the cool stuff they did with their friends or how their parents are so unfair! So, somewhere in pre-teen years – I stopped keeping a diary. But when I…

I Broke My ‘Feeler’!

For the past month or so I have been trying to do some soul searching. See, over the past few months I have tried to start reaching out socially in new areas (not new-new, but new since I got sober). Like dating. I guess I was expecting to find someone and fall in love, maybe…