Go to school. Get good grades. Sit down. Be a good girl. Do your job. Keep your head down. Don’t ask too many questions. Do as your told. Don’t question authority. Get a degree. Get a job with benefits. Marry a man who can take care of you.
What if I don’t fit that mold?
What if I don’t feel like myself when I follow those rules?
What if I have followed those rules for so long that I don’t know what “myself” even feels like anymore?
I have been doing a lot of work. Mostly inner work, some outer work. I am trying to unearth who I am and what I want. What I believe. Who I want to become. How I want to serve the world.
I am learning how to embrace my true feminine essence. I am exploring the world of spirituality and all its different avenues. I started a business and as of Monday – I paused my schooling.
A few years ago I made the decision to start school, and for that time in my life it was absolutely the right decision. However, things have changed (as things tend to do) and I am learning to listen to myself and honor my needs.
Right now, I have too much going on and I simply do not have the space for school, nor do I want to make the space. I am in business school – but I was also enrolled in college for psychology. College is what I am pausing. Because when I think about it; I don’t feel excited about it. It is no longer feeding my soul.
Many people disagree with my decision to pause college, and that it okay. But for right now, for me, I am going to focus on personal growth and the growth of my businesses. I feel excited and hopeful when I think of these things. I feel that they are currently things that are adding the most to my future and they are helping me to build the woman that I want to be.
I didn’t come to this decision lightly nor haphazardly. I thought about it for months and spoke with my mentors. (My mentors are like-minded people with similar values to mine, this is imperative when looking for a mentor.) My mentors agreed that it may be the best decision for this season of my life.
A few years ago, college was about learning and it lit me up. But for the last 6+ months or so, for me, college was just about getting it done and passing the class. That’s not what I want to be doing right now – and it isn’t benefitting anyone.
These are just some of the reasons that I came to the decision to pause for now, and when the time feels right to pick it back up – I will! I have every intention of finishing my degree, but I am not in a rush to do it. Because – why should I spend so much time on something that is draining me, when my energy could be so much more useful doing other things that fill me up and help others.
So, what I am said is that it is okay to speak up. It is okay to say no. It is okay to do things that are unorthodox. It is okay to step out of your comfort zone and step into your purpose.
No one else gets to live your life – so no one else should get the power to make decisions for your life. The power is yours, own it.
Do what feels right.
Now, I am not saying for you to do things that hurt others or anything harmful at all. Obviously. I know this could easily be taken out of context and made to seem like a toxic post where I am telling people to quit school. Stop it. That’s not what I am saying.
What I am saying though is to pause for a minute. Listen to yourself. What is your soul telling you? What do you need to change? What do you need to do more of? What do you need to do less of? Who are you and who are you becoming? What will it take to get there?
You are the only person that can change your life!
Heres to you!
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